Monday, January 24, 2022

Bath Haus (2*)

 


"And why shouldn't there be a gay thriller?" I asked myself, recognizing that gay fiction's move into genre suggests that there's more to it than the coming-out stories most men of my generation told.

If only P.J. Vernon's plotting were as good as his descriptions of the demimonde!  Oliver's first visit to a sauna sets things in motion:

. . . Men stand and sit and linger in stages of undress, manspreading on changing benches, tiny towels intentionally parted.  

None of them are particularly attractive--or if they are, the darkness is a mask--but that's not the point is it?  What's important is that I've left my life behind. I've abandoned its norms and its mores for Haus.   Where we all play half-hidden in shadow and nakedness and thirsty eyes aren't transgressive.

MeatLockr, a well-named hook-up app yields this nugget about disembodied cruising:

I search for a meaty thread.  One where we'd talked at length . . . Admitted to long-buried fantasies that only anonymity can surface.  Fetishes that persist deep beneath the surface like fungus in damp soil.

Oliver's recovery from an addiction to pills ring true, too, as does the tenuousness both of his recovery and his relationship with a controlling trauma surgeon which forms the fairly realistic backbone of the book which alternates their very different perspectives.

"If Nathan kicks me out, I have nowhere to go"--I wipe my face, teeth chattering--"and nowhere is exactly where recovery goes to die."

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out who the real villain is despite the red herring of an ex-boyfriend.  Maybe I'm a snob but the ludicrous denouement of Bath Haus--complete with a Mommie Dearest cameo--seems like a waste of Vernon's talent, a shot at commercial success that likely missed, despite a favorable review in the New York Times.



Sunday, January 23, 2022

The Recent East (5*)


What a beguiling read about family and dislocation, both physical and psychological.  Thomas Grattan begins his novel with a bewildering defection that befalls a young girl prior to the collapse of Communism and suddenly shifts to the perspective of Beate's children, who call her "the German lady,"  growing up in small-town America two decades in the future.  Michael and Adela, in turn, experience the trauma of being uprooted when Beate, bereft after her husband's abrupt departure for California, inherits the large home in East Germany that her parents had been forced to leave behind.

But it was the city’s emptiness that Michael now loved, streets he could walk down without a single car parked on them, houses as breathless as graves; the clerks at this or that store who greeted him with an overeager hello, this city a shelter dog ready to roll over and follow you forever if you approached with a soft voice and gentle hand.

Michael, more adaptable than his younger sister, has an easier adjustment to life in Deutschland, perhaps because his homosexuality conditioned him not to feel at home anywhere.

This city tugged self sufficiency out of Michael, like a magician pulling an endless scarf from his mouth. 

Adela, on the other hand, rebels against an ingrained German insularity by bringing food to immigrants, a kindness predicated on a moral superiority Michael doesn't share.  This eventually produces a family rupture that causes her to flee back to her father in California.

Beate felt hurt, then chastened by the violence in front of them that her daughter had seen coming with the inevitable result of a recipe. 

It takes a third generation for the family's trauma to dissipate.  By then, it's impossible not to love each of Grattan's perfectly realized characters whose individual stories emerge slowly, and in fragments, profoundly shaped by their German blood.

Wednesday, January 19, 2022

FLASHBACK: Boys Will Be Boys (1996)

In retrospect, it seems a little odd to have invited a couple of teenage boys to visit me when I was in the prime of life.  But there was an underlying agenda:  I wanted to mold their attitudes about what a gay man could be, just like Pedro Zamora had done on MTV's The Real World:  San Francisco.


Barb, my stepsister, agreed to inform her adopted son that I was gay before they flew in from Phoenix.  "Tell BJ he can bring a friend, if that will make him more comfortable," I added. Imagine my surprise when he showed up at LaGuardia with Nick, a kid who easily could have modeled for Ralph Lauren or Tommy Hilfiger.  We headed right for the Muller Cottage.  I figured the week before Pride would be relatively quiet.   It was . . . in the Pines where Nick may have gotten the shock of his life after asking BJ why I didn't have a girlfriend.  But fortunately, while we were playing paddle ball on the beach, a topless woman strolled past, heading west and sending the boys into a testosterone frenzy.  After lunch, Nick grabbed his videocamera and they went for a walk, returning breathlessly with guilty looks an hour later.  It took some prying, but they eventually confessed to angering a group of topless women playing touch football on the beach in Cherry Grove, one of whom charged them before demanding they delete the footage. She taught them their first LGBT lesson:  never cross a bull dyke. A gay uncle role model couldn't even come close!


A day later, after a gorgeous sunset, we caught an early train back to Manhattan.  To say they were stoked is an understatement. 


The boys saw the Twin Towers a little more than five years before they fell, en route to the Statue of Liberty.  Don't let Nick's choir-boy looks behind those Oakley sunglasses fool you.  He played highly competitive Scrabble, winning the best two out of three games. "Whiff" on a triple word score, opened by BJ, helped.  


We even ascended to the crown of Lady Liberty.  Several teenage girls standing in line welcomed BJ and Nick a lot more enthusiastically than the wimmin of Cherry Grove.  One gave Nick her room number at the Howard Johnson's hotel.  "In case you get bored."



As if their something-to-prove tour guide would ever let that happen.  BJ wanted to visit a music store so we stopped at Sam Ash near Times Square where he sat down at a drum kit and blew me away with the solo from In-A-Gadda Da-Vida.  Barb told me he was just as talented with computers.

New York City Subway
Empire State Building Observatory
BJ and I totally bonded over our love of music, although his taste was less poppy than mine. Streaming has stolen the IRL joy of visiting a megastore like Virgin.  You'd have to go to a distant continent to find one now.


I gave them the afternoon off before we went to see Miss Saigon.  They may have scored some weed.  BJ definitely bought some fuchsia hair dye.


No Supertalls spoiled the Central Park South skyline then.


A rainy last morning of their visit made the Metropolitan Museum of Art more tempting than it otherwise might have been for a couple of horny teens.  Each of them had been spending a lot more time than strictly necessary in my tiny bathroom with the water running and tissues spilling out of the garbage can.


I would have to wait 25 more years to catch another Winslow Homer retrospective at the Met because BJ & Nick were more interested in artifacts from ancient civilizations and the Middle Ages.


You can be sure I told them I screen-printed my t-shirt using an image from Art Spiegelman's Maus!




Nick now works for the Border Patrol, after several post-9/11 deployments overseas.  I never saw him again.  BJ, now Brett, is a family man in Prescott, AZ where he develops actuarial tables.  We finally caught up over coffee in 2019 after nearly three decades of silence.  I have no idea what either thinks of gay men, but I do know they had a faaaaabulous time!


 

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FLASHBACK: Return To School (1995)

Anthony taught a screen printing course at the Fashion Institute of Technology.  I enrolled after I discovered the school didn't offer a basic sewing course.


Thom, another FIT graduate, and Anthony joked that the acronym stood for "fags in training."  My first project reflected that identity.  I dreamed of editing  a Fire Island rag called "Poof News" that circulated gossip overheard on the ferry, when people are at their chattiest.


I had plenty of latitude to showcase my other gay icons.  No woman--aside from Mom, of course--has made a bigger impression on me than Jane Fonda in Barbarella.  Given the opportunity, she could have wrecked my gold-star status.  I scanned the image from a 1968 Life magazine cover that I had rescued from our dusty El Paso attic.  Jane's life is the one I most would have wanted to live.


I'll bet this image would have helped increase donations to the Dems from the queer community, possibly forestalling the Republican Revolution and the subsequent disintegration of American politics.

Jackie didn't screen nearly as well as Courtney Love (top), my best effort.  Those lips!  That lyric!  It was either that or I fake it so real I am beyond fake.  "Doll Parts" remains the apotheosis of grunge IMHO.


 Anthony gave me a B+.  Too bad I didn't print the images on higher quality fabric.

FLASHBACK: Alcatraz and Beyond (1994)

Anthony, Thom and I decided to "Go West" for Labor Day.  The time difference allowed us to dine in Tiburon at an excellent seafood restaurant the night we arrived.

Alcatraz topped my to-do list.  Not so different from the Pines in some respects, the island of lost boys where we had spent most of our all-male summer.

Cell-block exploration might have been more interesting if they weren't empty.

Thom looked the part more than either Anthony or I.


We spent the afternoon hitting all the local parks.  Here's Thom in Golden Gate.

I'd never been to Buena Vista Park in Haight Ashbury, which I'd first visited during the Summer of Love, with my parents.  I think Tales of the City may have taught me it was an outdoor cruising area.  Of course I recognized someone from the Pines.

We felt as if we were up among the clouds.

My friend Lauren from the library recommended we take the ferry to Sunday brunch in Sausalito.

The eggs Benedict at the Alta Mira did not disappoint after a night of debauchery.

Nor did the wraparound views of the bay and dozens of sailboats.


Excursions outside the city took us to Mount Tamalpais



. . . and the the Napa Valley where we enjoyed a winery tour and mud baths at Dr. Wilkinson's.




May all your traveling companions be so relaxed!










 

FLASHBACK: Iberian Reunion (1994)

Although I'd seen much of Europe as a child, I hadn't returned since visits to London, Paris and Greece the summer after graduating from college.  Nineteen years later, I had a good reason, 9 years my junior:  Leon, who took time off from his job in La Coruna to meet me in Madrid.  We crashed at his friend's place just long enough to see the Garden of Earthly Delights at the Prado, go for a swim, eat dinner at 11 p.m. and run into a fellow traveler from the Pines (small world!) at an intimate gay club.

Madrid


Nando

Jetlagged

Lago Pool

 Parque del Retiro

Botero Statue on Gran Via

Gran Via

Toledo


Since Leon hadn't seen much of Spain himself, I planned our itinerary.  Thanks to El Greco, Toledo was our first stop, a little more than an hour south of Madrid.  


We spent much of the visit hiking around the city under the blazing August sun.

Castillo San Servando 


Tajo River

Alcazar

Alcazar Courtyard

Statue Near Alcazar

Cathedral Spire

Cathedral Wall


Municipal Building

Municipal Archives Door

Old Balconies

Juderia Stroll

Granada

After a six-hour train ride, we arrived at our cozy pension just in time for a "nap."  We spent as much time "sleeping" as sightseeing.


Albaicin House

No Dogs or Just No Poodles?

Spanish Mother With Fan & Child

Leon hated cultural stereotypes.  Unless there was a camera in the vicinity.

Flamenco Studio

I bought a straw hat to tour the Alhambra, visible in the background.

View from San Nicholas Square 

If I could live in a palace, it would be there, the perfect nexus of location, architecture and design.  No wonder you have to book your visits months in advance now.

View from Casa Real

Casa Real

The Moorish decorative motifs blew me away with their intricate repetitiveness.




Patio de los Leones

Alcazaba Fortress



Galicia

Leon shared David's pride of place:  he couldn't wait to show me his home town.  We changed trains in Madrid.  

Atocha Station

Our day-long journey to La Coruna took us from the sunny southeast of Spain to the inclement northwest, off the Celtic Sea.  Carlos and Theresa, artisanal friends of Leon's former lover welcomed us to their semi-rural home.  It took me a while to understand that Leon wasn't out to his family, which eventually caused a serious conflict when his brother-in-law insisted he resume teaching aerobics classes at the gym he and Leon's sister owned.


Carlos did custom carpentry work.


Note the red structure, a granary, on nearby property.


Horreo

La Coruna would never have been on my radar.  Galicia felt like another country, actually.  I wasn't thrilled about relying on the hospitality of strangers, so I cut my trip short by several days.

La Terraza (Radio/TV Building)

Park Cantones

Not Happy


Wrought Iron & Glass

Plaza Maria Pita 

Old Town Street 

Indoor Market



Writer's Square

Riazor Beach

The highlight of the trip was still to come, however: an overcast day at Santiago de Compostela, which has been a Catholic pilgrimage site since the 9th century. My resentment at Leon dissipated--who could hold a selfish grudge in such a spiritual setting?








The ubiquitous clamshell motif obsessed me enough to buy a religious souvenir, completely out of character.



Leon and I spent our final day at his favorite beach

Mouros




 . . . and with his best friends in Betanzos, standing here next to a shop window displaying the local "breast cheese."

Victor, Cote & Leon

All's well that ends well, I guess, although we didn't know this would be the end.  When Leon tried to join me in the Pines two years later, the US Immigration Service denied him entry at Kennedy Airport and sent him back to Spain because he had overstayed his first visa.  The agents even seized his journal and queried him about "liking to make popcorn" with me, our euphemism for making love.  Nobody in the federal government responded to my furious protests but Barnet did manage to make me laugh through angry tears with his trademark wit, a riff on a tune from My Fair Lady:  

Leon from Spain stays mainly on the plane.

We never saw each other again.  But we'll always have the Empire State Building, an impulsive visit we made on Valentine's Day, after watching Sleepless in Seattle in bed, shortly before he left New York City for good.

Carpe Diem, indeed.

Betanzos


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